It's 11 PM and I am done (wait! im finished because meat is done, people are finished- thanks Mrs. Kruczynski) I am finished with my homework. For some reason though, I am on the computer. what the hell? I watched THE MASK today with Kento. What a great movie. and Cameron Diaz is extremely hot. I'm jealous.

Lately, I've been having a really hard time being positive. It's not like horrible things are happening, but enough not-so-good things are happening that it is resulting in me going into my room and crying. If you know me, I barely ever cry. Swimming has been really tough. At CCS I swam like shit. Nothing really i can say about that to make it sound any better. I was just really slow. A lot of people did really well though. Russ swam incredibly which was no surprise. Emily of course was phenomenal (what a great word.) Jenna and Victoria did so so so so well. And the same with everyone else. I told Mike I was thinking of quitting because I basically suck and he told me that we could work something out so I didn't quit completely. That really makes me happy that he cares enough about me to work with me to keep me swimming. ITs either that or he just feels like if I quit, I wasted all of his time or he just needs someone to be the 4th person on a relay which i really really hope isnt the case.

My family has been extremely <insert some negative word here- can't think of one.> I feel like my parents have almost given up on me. They don't support anything I do which makes it a bit harder to want to try. My grades suck and i dont know how to swim anymore. Basically thats all that i do so im worthless to them now. that sounds so much worse than it really is. sorry im being over dramatic. try reading with a sarcastic voice in mind.

Big meet this weekend. Jeremy called again and this time i answered. that was weird. excuse me sir, i didnt call you back because i didnt want to talk to you. i was drunk when i met you and never want to talk to you. I also got hit in the face with a bungee cord today. i didnt cry. i thought i would but i didnt. go jen.

Pretty soon summer will be here. I cant wait. go summer. I want to watch Fast Food Nation and Hotel Rwanda! OOHHHHH and also!!!!! anyone who would like to join me on a 24-hour relay walk for cancer please let me know. its not until August 20th. i need a team of 24, each person walks an hour. Im pretty sure that you can walk with other people. i dont know all of the information, i just think its a nice idea becuase Brenda has cancer and she had to have a blood transfusion today. i really hope she is ok. i love you brenda. Shirley, my almost grandma, had a triple bypass today. how is everyone getting so sick?